Musings

Life is sweet, but it also a mix of joy and sadness

I’ve lived for about 3 decades

I’ve seen enough to know that God is Good

And that life hands you some bitter lemons

That no matter how much lemonade you try to make

The taste still stings the tongue

I’ve won and lost in love

And I’m beginning to think that my love life has been cursed by some gremlin from my past life

Who knows, I might have done some unspeakable things

That I currently have no memory of in this present life

Despite this we know there’s light at the end of the tunnel

They say eventually “almost” everyone finds love

LMAO

Hopefully I’m in the number of folks destined to find love “eventually”

I’m out here on my patio

Smoking, drinking and watching the sunset

It’s a beautiful day outside

But it’s hard to say I feel that beauty on the inside

I’m grateful for all the wins

Grateful for all God has done for me

Life is beautiful and I cherish every breath I breathe

Glory to God Most High.

-Dára, 03/29/2022

Respect

Respect is a simple word,

Yet in it’s meaning deeper than just the word

Respect is loyalty

Respect is love

Respect is friendship

Respect is doing and saying to others what you’d to be done and said to you

Respect is also “not” doing or saying to others what you’d like them not to do or say to you

In this day and age where Respect is no longer popular

I promise to respect you in all regard,

To do right by you in your presence and absence.

To never give you reason to doubt my loyalty and love for you.

– Dára ; 03/23/22, 7:33pm EST

Euphoric Serendipity

You waltzed into my life effortlessly oblivious

As effortlessly as the sun rises in the morning and disperses the darkness

You came into my life and filled it with brightness

Your innocence brightens my life

Your pretty smiles and hearty laughters

Make my heart merry and dance in its tiny cage

Your innocence and gallantry amidst the troublesomeness give me hope

It will be easier to say we all know what we did

To say calculated plans and actions led to where we are today

But we would only be fooling ourselves to ignore the God factor

Which makes lines fall in pleasant places for us

You exude so much love and care it makes me wonder whatever I did to deserve such beauts in my life – I know God deserves the Glory and nothing we planned or did could have made any of this happen

Over the years the bond grew and broke different times

Then got glued back together; grafted like trees of different species

Seems more like life saying y’all bound to be in each other’s lives

I’m eternally grateful to GOD for making our paths cross and bringing us into each other’s lives to learn and be blessed by each other

God is our anchor, sustainer, strength and hope.

Each of us make a whole individually and are complete on our own

But it’s also factual that no man is an island, and

I’ve come to realize that I’m incomplete without you. ♡

⁃ Audric Dárah 02/15/21

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Hey You ❤️

I’m missing you, and I’m mad about it.

Somedays ago you said it seems I don’t appreciate you making time to come over

But you don’t seem to get it.

I’m tired of you coming over and leaving.

I want you to live and stay here..

Not merely dropping by, and leaving after a few hours

Because even if you stayed here from morning till night, it still won’t be enough.

I want the whole of you,

I want to:

Go to bed with you by my side, wake up with you by my side

Make food for you before you come home

Prepare the bathroom (before you get home) lit with candles, and accompanied with slow music

I’m missing you, and I’m angry.

I miss your touch, I miss us lying in bed, I miss your gentle caress, and soft kisses

I’m missing you and I’m perturbed 😤

Picture source: KERA News

The Ride*

Lol not my car 🙈 but my dream brand of car😏

One morning in May 2013 I went on a visit to my former University and while in my former  lecturer’s office in came this babe with a friend, lol they were loud (animated) , fun and excited but somehow she came to the desk I was at and we started a conversation,  there was an instant vibe. The friendship started.

Taye and Kehinde

Her name is Taye, she’s a twin, she has plenty wahala (troublesome in a good way) lol; her company is always enlivening. Sometimes we have a smooth sailing relationship but some other times wires spark in either my head or her’s and we don’t talk for months, most times I miss her and call her after fighting it for a while, sometimes when her pride fails she calls me first too, but I guess it’s normal. 

She has 4 sisters and their combo would bring joy to any sad soul, but I’ve only had the chance to meet two, her twin Kehinde and her junior sister Bolu.
Kehinde is her twin, she’s hilarious and could pass for a comedian lol. I have a deficiency in pronouncing ‘R’ well, but Kehinde can pronounce it so well! (I’m jealous🙈) and she makes jest of me. She’s a whole lot of fun bundled in one person just like her twin.

Bolu the sweet young one 😜 Hehe 

Bolu is like the baby of the house, I’m about 9 years older than she is, she’s tender and innocent. But when I say I like her, her elder sisters say I’m too old for her. Lol i think I understand tho. Even Bolu says her elder brother would kill me if he hears me wooing her 😂 but I love my life so…the answer is in the wind.

There was a time some months back I paid for an exam (after months of serious search and savings for funds) $300 was so excited about it,  had read and prepared for months. But alas! I wrote the exam but didn’t meet the cutt off I got 770 instead of 810 which is the pass mark.

I was devastated, didn’t want to go back to the house and  Taye was the first friend that popped up in my head to call. 

I’ll pause here and tell you a short story

Last December they had a family trip to the States, I tried to check on her but not frequently. So when they got back into the country I didn’t know. To cut a long story short, I called and said I was gonna go see her the next week, but bcses she didn’t check in to know what’s up I didn’t go visit her. So another fight started and lasted for about 5 months. Till I was missing her so bad called and she didn’t pick up then i sent a text which she didn’t reply. Fast forward ⏩ to my exam time (6 months of not speaking to each other) 

I was lucky I had made a move to reconcile a month earlier ’cause that enabled me have the boldness to call her and when she picked up all I said admist her talking excitingly was “I just failed an exam and I’m sad are you home? Wanna come over”

I went over she came to pick me up at the gate of the estate and from that point I began to feel better, I  got to their house and herself and Bolu kept me company with a delicious meal Kehinde prepared,  it was good company for the soul. 

When I was leaving, Taye and Bolu decided to drop me off at the bus stop, but as we were on our way we met their mom driving back home. Lol I felt like ducking under the seat 🙈😂 but no way, Taye introduced me to her and I greeted from the car. When we started to drive off, my whole face was hot 😂 i guess I was blushing 😂🙈 and I can’t explain why. 

So far we’ve been good, but I have a feeling there’s still going to. be one more fight cus she invited me for her sister’s wedding and because of work, I fear I might not be able to attend. May God help me.

If I decide to write all about us, WordPress won’t contain all. Lol.

Friends should be cherished. 😌💯

P.S: Taye practically forced me to write something today, but I didn’t know/have what to write so I decided to write about us. 😜

Unintentionally Wrong

Today was almost a bad day.

On my way home I stopped over at the supermarket to get a bottle of honey. It had been a long and exhausting day, and I had been pressed for a while, so I decided to ease myself first. So looking around and seeing “VISTOR’S TOILET” on a building gave me so much relief. Lol I was so tired I didn’t check the sign on the door as I entered, I only noticed it was looking different somehow, but the whole place was empty so I didn’t really bother.
But after I was through and was washing my hands I just noticed two women standing outside looking at me, then one of them said ‘This is the female toilet’ I was like “ahh! 😱😨” Didn’t even wait to finish washing my hands 😂, I think my reaction made them burst into laughter, ‘ cus they were laughing hard.

I thank God I wasn’t mobbed 😄😂, they would have probably damaged my fine face. 

😂😂😂
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The ‘crazy’ Conversation

It’s funny sometimes the way the mind and heart works, I’ll say most times it’s a mystery. The eyes mostly makes the heart and mind have a rethink on decisions made, for example, you could have a friend (of the opposite sex), and you’ve probably agreed with each other that there’d be no dating.

But suddenly you meet after a long while and your mind can’t believe what your eyes are seeing. Lol. 

This happened to me yesterday and later in evening we this short conversation:

 Me: it’s kinda bcoming dangerous for me to continue seeing you 😒

Her: Meaning???

 Me: You’re becoming finer by the day

  •  And I could fall in love with you
  • I’d jus find myself in the deep ocean of love without knowing when I slipped and fell into it

Her: Aaaaarggghhh

Me: You smell like your perfume was mixed with flowers fetched from the garden of love, your feet look like you just stepped out of the river of errm…

  • Your smile like that of an enchantress who has beautiful eyes and enticing lips that make men weak to the knees
  •  Your fleshy chesty mounds sending men into dreamy land of 😻nd everything good

Her: Darah!!!

Hehe, that’s all.

P.S: She has a boyfriend so I’m being careful, Lol.

A Tribute To Womanhood

I saw this in a book, and I thought to share:

Who freely substitutes, changes or sacrifices her bio-father’s name in order to adopt a man’s surname for love’s sake to become a man’s wife but a woman?

A woman readily trades her virginity for genuine love which sometimes turns sour against noble expectations. Against all odds, she is always there to satisfy the cravings of manhood for the total well-being of the family as if its success depended solely on her but it takes two to tango. She routinely wakes up earlier than anyone else prepare meals, ensure her husband is ready for work and children for school.

More often than not, the working woman is a house wife too Ever so happily even after a hectic day at work, she cannot wait to be home with the family she so much cherishes. The company of her husband and children seems to explain it all that family is everything. The man with a womb, as some would say, sleeps late doing the house chores to keep the home clean and tidy. What an enduring legacy she bequeaths to her lovely daughter to carry on.

The woman is a natural incubator to bear her husband’s seed for two hundred and seventy days of gestation, toil and trouble. She experiences chemical changes and body metabolism which metamorphoses into a child of whom she is delivered through a rigorous process of unimaginable birth pains and travail known only to her. Motherhood is indeed a painful privilege! She tows this lonely path to promote and translate the man from just a husband into a father. Yet, the joyous life-product of biological relationship, a miracle of nature, the little mankind, proudly bears the father’s name and the womb-man, now a mother, would not budge because her credentials are unquestionable.

As if cursed to love, the woman wouldn’t stop at that but gets sucked up for whole six months in disregard of her feminine frame to give the beauty of exclusive feeding to her neonate while the man of the house calmly looks on.

She does so with joy and self-abandon. This female gender cannot afford not to keep vigil up until her baby is lulled to sleep. Here, through practice, she makes an expert at lullabies to keep the home and her neighborhood quiet and serene. Many a time, mom jettisons her comfort to watch over the cradle. What a masterly feat sweetly coordinated!

Whoever says the woman is weak or that she plays a second fiddle should know by now that it is only the strong that aptly fits the foregoing.

Hey! Quite evidently at one time or the other, the model woman is a regular cook, nanny, a driver, a witty home economist, a financial manager, a reliable partner, a nurse a moral icon, a counselor, a mentor, a symbol of tolerance, a galvanizer, a shock-absober, a social orderly, a surprising in-law, a teacher, a love bank, a baby-making machine, a friend in need and indeed.

The responsible woman is not a she-man or she-male, a by-product or an after-thought. She is not a necessary evil or a sorry weakling but a dependable, responsible backup for the successful man.

Womanhood is an indispensable social lubricant that makes the world go round. Women are the spice of society, the home-makers, the strength and pride of generations. Can you imagine a world without women? The world must be grateful for the blessed gift of womanhood.
-Faith Adedoyin Oresanya, “Kingdom Jewels” (Inspiration from the women in the Bible) [chapter one]

Go Figure* 

‘Are you in a serious relationship?’ they ask
‘LOL, No’ I reply, and of course they’d ask ‘Why?’

I answer, and they go ahead to give unsolicited advice, but I smile and nod and say ‘thank you

Not that I’m not serious about getting a girlfriend, but things happen

Sometimes I’m scared; scared of all the drama that comes with relationships

Scared of all the heartache that comes with having a ‘relationship’ fight 

But I remain hopeful and I know I’ll (try my best) be the best guy any girl would have.

I wrote a note I would give to my lover (if I had one) LOL

Disclaimer:I’m not saying relationship is all about sex, this is just the aspect I choose to write about

First time I saw you; I was smitten and lost for words

When you came close my knees lost balance

When we kiss me my lips melt and my head takes flight in ecstasy

As I work my way down your body with my lips, I spend some time on the eyes of the succulent mounds of flesh on your chest

Then move down to your fountain of warmth and pleasure with my lips

You reach for my joystick; I pause and watch you give it warmth and life

I slide into you and you moan softly (or loud) I hear an orchestra

When we make love my world is filled with awesomeness like 10 million fireflies lighting up the night

And my worries take flight

With you by my side there’s nothing we can’t conquer and I feel like I own the whole world

Your breasts taste like honey and your juices taste like the chocolate spring mixed with strawberry flavoured ice-cream

Your kisses taste like potion from the garden of love, and in your eyes I find tranquillity

Your love reaffirms my dreams and aspirations as you constantly support and encourage me.

I’ll never take you for granted; I’ll be the best you’ll ever have

You are my Queen and I your King, my treasure, my life, my world, my perfect trophy wife.

-Your baby boy.

P.S: That’s not me in the picture.